toki! mi ala niki. time is running too fast for me. i dont like the passage of time

i can crash a car next year. i cant believe it

i still have horrible procrastination problems and i dont think i can have an achievable resolution

...barely anything has happened to me recently thats notable (or that i can talk about publicly)

i... dont think this is a recap post but i guess i talked about 2024 does this count

CRAP OF NOTE

• i guess im trying to improve. i guess im trying to let go of my past
• im still working on that thing that im basically only the character designer of
• i still havent finished nikkis nightmares. i think i shelved it. maybe ill do something about it
• pico day! ...my art sucked. i wish i could expand WAHT further, ive gotten so many ideas since but also I WOULD NEED NEOCITIES SUPPORTER TO UPDATE IT
• halloween! a kid dressed as the grim reaper possibly recognized my costume and now i keep saying i want to die. i dont actually want to die
• i cant believe im still on roblox. i wish i could quit. i am also stuck as cassandra because of the incident 🧯🌌

🐇 "i keep getting dragged back into roblox no matter what why am i forced into this fate"

👥 "autism" "autism, nikki"

ART OF NOTE?

shameless self-promotion

• tbcza: first frontpage... i dont know WHY it sucks
• brainrot: last drawing of the year if i cant get any more ideas. it also sucks (on purpose)
• pico sticker: one forum post lead to me making bootleg pico merch. idk
• 09 and kill it with fire: i dont know why i put them here actually
• core meltdown: first art i posted in 2024 (that i actually did make in 2024)

please kill me

couldn't do anything for Halloween sorry

but I'm working on a game again except I'm not actually doing anything outside of character design

i don't know why but i feel dread

im just gonna renew my supporter on the first of october to make it actually fall on a month

(im not allowed to purchase subscriptions so i have to manually renew every month)

i simultaneously want to take a break and post more

i dont know why but i feel like im not allowed to talk that much

also ill do something for halloween hopefully

idk im supposed to have made more keychains but i guess ive finished one of every item

i feel like going to a random convention and noting the events in the supporter forum

im also gonna make a thread for if i go to an actual ng meets (if i ever could in a lifetime)

whether i will bring cassandra furby to every single time i go as cassandra idfk

(they constantly scream because of the shaking... and i dont think i can bring batteries and a screwdriver)

maybe im only going to bring the pico sticker stuff specifically to newgrounds meets

its like a shop in a bag and its pretty heavy i think most of the weight is coming from the button pins

• 50 fans. i honestly have no idea what to say
• website has weird randomly changing tagline (perchance)

• more random shit added to that horrible ng idea generator
• i dont know how to stop obsessively checking this sites forums or my art
• my therapist told me theres nothing saying i should be constantly working but i still havent learned how to take a break in general

the one tom has is 5 dollars but every variation is no longer available

its labeled as a mood tracker???

theres also a lead and cadmium warning

I FEEL REALLY HIGH DESPITE NOT HAVING CONSUMED ILLICIT SUBSTANCES IVE MADE THE WORST ART EVER

the original cast of characters

every final stage character is assigned an aura

when they evolve into final they become one of 3 based on care and aura

the audiophiles were originally fnf themed

(i still don't know how to feel abt bopibotchi (the boyfriend one)

according to a note i made the existence of arutchi (who's based on animator vs animation 4)

puts the earliest possible release date at October 2014 around the same time as tamagotchi 4u

buramutchi is the equivalent of obaketchi

taken from the supporter forum!!! whyyyy im kinda sleep deprived

• i feel like i have to post at nighttime in Asia (daytime in America)
• my art quality is decreasing and so is my motivation and confidence
• im running out of ideas but when i do get ideas the final result is shit
• i think i still havent gotten over my realization
• is it fine that i just keep posting news and on the forums and rarely ever post art
• from my commission sheet
• why does most of my art with Cassandra in it have over 100 views