I SERIOUSLY CANT EXPRESS IT. I JUST LIKE ALL OF THEM THAT MUCH. EVEN IF I ONLY FOUND OUT SO RECENTLY... SDHAGJKDSJGALKJDSALKGBNSDKALJKLSDAGNSDAL

also i dont know why it feels obligatory. i have to mention this is the same day as butcher vanity.

just in case you don't recognize ToT

the art i made for this (that i autopublished so i wouldnt be late)

ive... also made a terrible cover for this. its on youtube because its too crappy for ng.

i am literally unable to verify rn so dont mind that theres no thumbnail.

please read the description (or the bluesky post for an image of the sketches)

i realize this is also the first time ive posted that i have a youtube account. im sorry

im starting to think about cassandra less and less (im sorry about that) but now im also obsessing over another murderous woman who wears red and black. the only difference is shes heavily associated with cannibalism instead of shootings. and im also (but somewhat less so) sorry about that.

and yet i dont think it really matters anymore. i cant not be interested in violence.

i think thats just a very strong part of me. ive always liked the violent ones since i was very young.

i dont think i can ever change.

hopefully ill do something for pico day even though theres no cash prize

(also i still have terrible motivation but i guess ill still try to)

made a terrible hairclip to recognize me by.

if i ever go to a convention and you see this crap on my hair then its probably me

can i still technically say all the irl images of me are in a costume...

you cant see my clothes i could be dressed entirely as nene at that moment

this literally all started with a drawing for my playlists

i dont know why i wrote this while i was outside in my notes. i am still outside. i am writing this from the same phone

edit: for some reason i rewrote this for my website

newgrounds

it is a giant city. it is always a party.

everyone is at least a little social. we support each other.

there are many events. birthday of tom (pico day), pixel day, meetups, collaborations, contests, etc.

anybody can be on newgrounds. 

unless ur a child. but we look forward to ur contribution when u can join.

newgrounds headquarters. tom is leader.

there are lots of tall buildings.

there are a lot of entertainment type buildings.

maybe there are also bars. and clubs.

oh god. disco about seal. CLUB SEAL

arcades and theaters and music shops.

i have no idea what would represent art maybe the city has a museum or some public space.

districts based on the kind of content? like cute and horror and fanwork and stuff

there are ruins of old ng. destroyed by darnell or penilian or something.

abandoned school. something happened there years ago.

somewhere outside the city there is the military zone the tankmen war in.

there are multiple interpretations of the same character that coexist or something.

everyone has technology.

sometimes there are criminals. they are usually dealt with very quickly.

there are good robots like the ng bots and robot character and there are bad robots like ai generator and spammer.

also this image was attached for some reason

uhhhhhhh i couldnt make anything for it and its already long past

but i guess i had something pickle related i made a while back

https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=2999455174

pit people cupcake in terraria!!!! it sucks

i forgot i blocked myself one day

i can see my own posts and creations so it literally has no effect

...outside of search results. for some reason thats the one time it does something

bluesky

i dont like twitter. im fine enough with bluesky.

i still dont know what to post.

maybe ill use this for random announcements

spacehey

i was the first person to say cassandra and cadmium in a discord server.

thats... genuinely what caused this account to exist.

i got friend requests all from people named nikki

straw

strawpage. for some reason its themed after cassandra.

i dont even know anymore just send me crap

linktree

does it really matter if i already have an accounts list on my website

newgrounds features and crap like that. may add to this later

1: fancy link by just putting the submission link in your text.

dont make it like this (with the link button)

2: putting a video link creates a dropdown if its formatted with the hyperlink button i think.

for some reason this is only on submission pages. example here

3: gifs on the forums (thanks to pingu):

• if the resolution is too high and it has to resize to fit it stops animating
• if its over ~4.45 mb it stops animating regardless of image resolution

4: if you get at least one of your things frontpaged you can make your news posts appear

on the front page in the artist news sidebar

5: you can put a message on the front page footer if you get around 200 xp

so not exactly at level 5

6: user roles and credits lets you credit artists not on newgrounds.

it says its just for audio... but technically you could credit anything and i mean anything.

i guess put "other" in the used for field in this case

some smaller things

1. you can put playlists in playlists. i dont know why i mention this but just so u know
2. if you put a submission link to something that doesnt exist in a post, you cant make the thread/post

im nikki. probably.
わたしはニッキ（たぶん）
ken la mi ala Niki.

i have no idea where the trilingual (not a word) introduction thing came from but im pretty sure it came from playing livly island

this is the only life you get, and though it hasn't ended yet, sometimes you wish it MIGHT

today is a birthday. this day is currently subpar. every day somebody is celebrating their birthday.

i remember reading a comment saying happy birthday is being sung constantly around the world.

i could theoretically crash a car now but i am still too young for m-rated things.

i have not changed much actually

obligatory image dressed as Cassandra. the fixation is ongoing.

and will probably be ongoing for as long as i will be a newgrounder 😔

I cant believe ive known cassandra since i was 12 ITS BEEN 5 FUCKIGN YEARS

THE TIMELINE

• January 7. i start work on this comic

• January 8. i rewrite my website bio and suddenly want to create a strawpage. why did i do this
• January 9. i go to the mall because the law told us we couldnt go outside on my actual birjhday
• I ate at a japanese restaurant and went to a disney store. they had no oswalds.
• I went home and i think i had a breakdown shortly before midnight my birthday. this is the result
• Birthday. i fall asleep. cut to 10 am
• Ordered a cake flavor i had never had in my life. it was good. it was my fault for playing portal
• i write this post

WTF DO I DO NOW

ever since new year i am trying to actually do thigfs on newgoruds and other places and talking to poeple. i cant type right now. i guess im trying to work on my skills and mental state. idfk anymore

will also share the first script of the nikki comic (spoilers???)