taken from the supporter forum!!! whyyyy im kinda sleep deprived

• i feel like i have to post at nighttime in Asia (daytime in America)
• my art quality is decreasing and so is my motivation and confidence
• im running out of ideas but when i do get ideas the final result is shit
• i think i still havent gotten over my realization
• is it fine that i just keep posting news and on the forums and rarely ever post art
• from my commission sheet
• why does most of my art with Cassandra in it have over 100 views

i want a ng meetup in the smx convention center specifically for the arcade in the sm nextdoor

with a ddr and a maimai and a chunithm and just drummania (unfortunately) and soundvoltex etc

i admit the mall arcade part is kinda a loophole for me to "attend" while im still 15 but still

i made a horrible cassandra furby... that i could probably bring to a meetup. it mostly works.

she is the only reason im afraid of furbies. my nightmares can come true now that i have them

(i had a dream where i cosplayed as cassandra and the scream of a black furby woke me up)

sitewise i wish you could toggle the quotation marks on the about you section

also theres still a bit of orange on the purple logo

im too scared to talk to tom fulp in the suggestions thread

all i feel like doing is selfpromotion and talking abt my unpostable projects im so fuckin tired

• i have a commission sheet
• this newgrounds idea generator that came from a dream
• i got a dancing cactus and i want to customize it into a flower to cope-cope with my realization
• i also got furbies. one of them for customization too (cassandra furby)
• also a manual for a tamagotchi project

a conversation i just had made me realize

most of the ideas i have would be impossible to post here because

• it's too direct (Cassandra's birthday, just tords birthday but Pico-themed, requires the happy happy birthday song (arrogant worms)
• it's literally just a recreation (mopemope midi, dingle's midi)

the only ideas i have at the moment that could be postable are

a weird malware-themed utau song (bug already exists i know)

and "technically a Pico game" (Pico's school with scratch Pico instead)

Maybe I'm too young to be creative i guess

maybe this has something to do with me uploading audio

(its not even published, its literally just a crappy mopemope midi cover

i want my frontpage privileges revoked)

update: got an answer. can't post that on newgrounds. it's on my website instead.

i really should get my frontpage privileges revoked

https://ddnikki.neocities.org/other/misc

i tried shrinking plastic. we didn't buy the printable ones. this is supposed to be cassandra

According to my calendar today is "technically nikki's (the character not me) birthday"

June 28 was literally just the day i drew the first ever design for them

Also apparently the location is set to tokyo disneyland. I have never went there

apparently i had animal crossing screenshots where scoot was pico and broffina was cassandra

also judy was nene and bob was darnell??? i guess i have to work on that

so like what if i made cards of them and when scanned thats what you get

• If there's a UFA cabinet in the Pico 2 arcade what if UFA is just the equivalent of Pico's School in universe, like someone saw a headline saying "local student shoots down giant alien to save his school" and was like "I should make a game about them"
• I kinda still want to make a UTAU out of myself somehow if I can fIGURE OUT HOW TO DO THAT
• I have 2 unfinished midi projects and idfk what to do with them
• I still can't get the PH Newgrounds meetup idea out of my head

I had a dream where a person in a pikachu fursuit (like, a plain yellow fursuit, bootleg pikachu mascot head) attacked my teacher live on zoom call

They were beating up my teacher (I'm pretty sure my teacher didn't survive) so me and my classmates went through our computer screens to where the teachers were and we held a meeting on how to deal with the pikachu person

Then it suddenly appeared and crashed through the window and was flying w/ a cape feather for some reason then i got a cape feather and i grabbed the pikachu person and freaking smashed them into the ground pretty much looked like that one dragon ball scene

It made a shockwave that freaking destroyed the skyscraper we were meeting in so like i went to catch the falling students but then freakin

I found out the person in the pikachu fursuit was cassandra the pico one of all people she somehow survived

The entire thing was revealed to be a movie on my computer at the end of the dream

...1 month later love conquers all was released